The Losting Heart

To:

The mistaken HEART.

Why...

I tried very hard to be happy....

But, once I remember back everything...

I know I failed... :)

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God says:

'' Just trust on me,

I'll wash your sins away...''

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I trusted on it...

And also trust on God.

But, I discerned that...

I can't forget my sins,

And I can't forgive myself. :)

Because I did wrong - err.

.....

It just keep on reminding me...

Such a damn feeling.

.....

I really wanted to be

PERFECT and HAPPY...

Although I wasn't happy,

I hope to act like I'm too...

BUT

Act + Sustain

Is really hard, and hard...

.....

I can realized that...

How stubborn I am...

And how stupid I am...

.....

People are betrayed me...

Even tears,

Also betrayed me so bad...

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Dearest Lord Jesus,

Please tell me what to do...

Please tell me where to go...

Please tell me who to trust on...

Please tell me how to release hurt...

Please, my God Father...